Clutter.
I like challenges. I am the type of person who would rather have more than I could handle on my plate, than nothing at all. With that kind of attitude, one should expect to feel overwhelmed on a regular basis.
In order to avoid feeling constant stress, I’ve found that by pushing off “less important” obligations, tasks, and chores, one can immediately focus on “more important” challenges, and simply wait for a later time to accomplish the minor ones. It is organized procrastination; or you could think of it as extreme opportunity-cost analysis. Whatever it is, or however you want to call it, it is failing me for the first time.
This has been a crazy month: I’m suffering from March Madness, and I’m not talking b-ball. There is a lot on my mind; I’m all cluttered up. This time, I’m putting off important personal obligations, and suppressing intense emotions.
I don’t think I’ve ever looked forward to a break as much as I’m looking forward to this Spring Break. It will give me the opportunity to catch up on all this shit, clear up all the clutter, as well as share some valuable down time with “the sweetest person I know.”
con amor,
R.Calderon.
Also, I must mention that today makes 80 days sober.
